As I promised myself

Some changes start now. I saw again last night why I've decided to do this... I found it extremely hard to want to do anything with anyone else because of what they were doing, I didn't want to drive back to my hometown and end up in some bar I hate because it's filled with a bunch of suburban parents, some of which I know because I played hockey with their sons, and the kids that I grew up in school with but never moved out of their hometown. Yuck, I try to reserve one of those nights to once a year at Thanksgiving. Anyone else I would want to see required driving anywhere from one to four hours, and I'm not really prepared to do that every weekend. I need something I want to do that I can do any given weekend -- someone I can call up and has the same idea of a good time as me. Damn it, I'm sick of it, and I'm doing something about it. I was so bored last night that I actually called the bartending school knowing they would probably be closed, so I'm calling today as I had planned to do. I'm also doing something else today that I've never done and I never imagined I'd do, but desperate times sometimes call for desperate measures. It might be a bit sad which is why I won't spell out what that is on here, but ask me and I might blab... even then, well, maybe.

With a bartending job, my number one priority is finding something I like to do where I can meet new people that will likely have the same interests as me, because right now I'm not finding it. I've decided I'm NOT about to start going out by myself, it's just not me. Number two priority is to make a bit of extra money, but new company would be fine for now.

Speaking of extra money, %$#!ing government has banned online poker, and recent arrests have forced people like myself to few options for money transfer... in black and white, I have to physically send a check to put money onto a poker site, and to get money off, the same. Previously if I wanted money online, I'd literally make a few mouse clicks and I was good to go. To get money off, I made a few mouse clicks and went to the nearest ATM, and that was it. Now, is it even worth the hassle? For me, probably, as the past four years combined I've made about what I made in my first year of real work, nothing to shake a stick at. But what about the crap competition? Are they going to go through this snail mail crap to get their fifty bucks online and put up with a 2 or 3 week wait period? I don't like the chances of that. I hope something changes the mind of the power hungry politicians that put people in this position, who are they to say what people want to do with their money? This is not a completely free country, that's for %$@king sure. End rant.

Now it's off to do that thing... I really don't know what to expect. The worst that can happen? I spend a few bucks and I end up disappointed. So what the hell, here goes...