A lot of stuff to think about

.... in all parts of my life... everything has me thinking so much that my mind is spinning and I can't make myself go to bed early. I remember such a stint a few years back where I would get 4-5 hours a sleep per night... but then I was hooked on Red Bull. Things on my mind are things that will make me happy, make me feel satisfied, piss me off... just a lot of stuff. Even poker... I played last weekend for the first time in I don't know how long. I got a taste of the past, the giving up going out for playing poker to make money thing. It really is a trade-off to me. If I go out, I'm spending money but am being social (which I think is healthy for me, personally). If I stay in, I'm being anti-social but am making or at least saving money. Holy crap I realized I'm rambling.

But seriously, what the hell is it about myself that makes me want to stay up and do something, ANYthing, when it's past midnight and I'm zombie tired? Why can't I be sane and just go to bed? To put it with my Minnesotan accent, JEEEEEZ.