Wiser is a better word

I hate how much people start to use the world "old" when they're 22, 23, 24... it sickens me. I sicken myself when I use it. Seriously, unless we are struck by disaster we're going to live to be 50, 60, 70... it's still relatively early in the game. There are just different phases, so to speak, and one has to look at how these new phases are exciting.

Not sure how that came up as my first thought to this post... oh yeah I just remembered! It's nearly 1 AM and I really don't feel like going to bed, but know I should, and wish I was one of those people that could be 100% after only 4, 5, or 6 hours of sleep. I generally attribute that to older people... shit, there I go again. Will my night owl tendencies ever change? I don't know. I've read some stuff on the circadian rhythm and how it is different for each person. The most interesting part of the circadian rhythm to me is that certain people are more efficient at certain types of tasks at different times of the day. So true. So why do so many in society ignore this science and demand that we follow strict cookie-cutter schedules, despite this scientific knowledge? Power? Control? Blows my mind. I fight it as much as I can, but adhere just enough to prevent risk of potentially negative consequences... blah. If I had a typical day, I would be able to wake up at my own pace, with plenty of time to eat a proper meal and exercise before going to work. I'd go to work after morning rush hour, go home after evening rush hour, and have the rest of my evening to do as I please, without feeling obligation to work out as I have already done that for the day. Couple that with my normal night owlish weekends, and I'm probably instantly 10-20% more efficient at EVERYTHING. Not even kidding. It's like I deal with jetlag every Monday.

At least it's a short week!

Canada trip next week, Connecticut the week after. Lots of stuff to get done this week... starting with bedtime now.

Let's see where this takes me

I've been doing a lot of reading of my past blog this past week. WOW have I changed since 2006. Just wow. It's as if I can read and watch myself maturing slowly over time. It was always one of the reasons in the back of my mind to keep this blog as a makeshift journal/diary to monitor this exactly... looks like it's paying dividends. I wanted to be able to go back and read this if/when I have kids so I can relate to how I behaved at their age, though this only started in my 20s. I *think* I can do this in my mind for remembering what I was like when I was 8, 12, in my teens, etc., but thinking about it more now and my perception of myself at these ages over the past few years, the view is definitely becoming more skewed. I see these "damn kids" that look so young these days, then I estimate what age they might be (which I've determined I'm horrible at), and finally then think of the dumb shit I used to do at that age. I then imagine these "damn kids" that I see doing these things that I did, and my knee-jerk reaction is to scold, scold, scold... guess I'm getting old, old, old...

So yeah I started writing this post with absolutely no idea what would come out... I just know that I've enjoyed reading some of my past posts this week and can't really determine why I ever stopped writing. I love to write creatively, and at one point thought I might become a writer when I grow up. Eh. Maybe not now... but I guess blogging fulfills a little bit of that need.

Will I finally move to the city this year, or will I wait one more? I could see either happening. I will be in the city no later than around 2 years from now for sure, it is just a matter of time and circumstance. I have a friend that just moved to Calhoun, and I saw a picture of his view. Yeah I'm jealous. But I also like my cozy underground heated parking in the winter... not so easy in the city!

I've joined a gym, and I love it. It makes me think back to high school when I could have learned more about weights and fitness... wish I would have taken that over a study hall now. Oh well, now's better than never.

Gah, I have so many different things I could write about right now, but I'll save those for another day. Guess that's all for now.

Back after over a year....

Yeah so I forgot I had this thing. Lot of stuff over the past year, too much for right now.

Leave for the Kentucky Derby in a few days, so that has consumed most of my brain during non-peak hours lately.

I'll get to one thing, a request for a recipe...

Jalapeno Mac 'n' Cheese
(Not for those on a diet!)

Jalapeno Mac and Cheese

8 tablespoons (1 stick) butter
1/2 pound cream cheese
2 cups heavy cream
1 teaspoon salt
3 teaspoons Tony Chachere's Creole Seasoning
1/2 pound Cheddar cheese
1/3 cup flour
1/2 cup sliced jalapenos (chop after removing from jar) (Ortega brand is good, some have weird flavors)
1/2 cup jalapeno juice (from jar)
4-8 tablespoons Panko bread crumbs (must be Panko! very important!)
1 pound elbow macaroni pasta

-In a saucepan melt butter.

-Add cream cheese and mix until blended.

-Add heavy cream and whisk.

-Add jalapeno juice and whisk.

-Mix in cheddar, stirring until cheddar is completely melted.

-Mix in sliced jalapenos.

-Add salt, Tony C's and flour.

-Continue whisking until all ingredients are completely incorporated.

-Spray loaf pan (13” x 9”) with pan coating.

-Layer pan with cooked macaroni.

-Spoon in mixture, stir around until well blendedd.

-Dust top with desired amount of bread crumbs.

-Cover and bake at 350 degrees F for 30 minutes.

-Uncover and bake another 30 minutes or until browned to desired color.